| Friday, May 11, 2007 |
| Tears !! |
Just a quick note ..
I never cried over someone before except for one about 6 or 7 years ago. It was the first and last time i cry over a friend that i've lost.
why do i get the feeling i need to cry over the self i've lost these days ?
How does it feel to cry over yourself ? .. I wish i could bring those tears down and tell you .. But i Just can't !
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posted by Sherif _ الهراوي @ 12:04 PM  |
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| Wednesday, May 9, 2007 |
| Alienated .. |
Most of the times it was my choice to have a break from friends and family and thought that was healthy and would give me a chance to renew whatever it is we have, but what i haven't seen coming is the fact that people don't get it and i get blamed for wanting to overcome boredom, not only that i get to lose friends instead of bonding more.
It's sort of a stupid concept but who said i'm smart !!
Apparently being alienated is mostly my choice in the first place, so what bothers me so much is the question i asked myself and figured out i get lonely sometimes and need my friends to be there for me whenever their friend needs them. And the real friends should get that stupid concept and deal with it.
But i've always been the big ear or the nice talkative one in outings and stuff: a fun-buddy more than a friend and the moment i get crappy moods, i'm out of whatever the thing is.
It's pretty humiliating owning up to such stuff, but it's true. I've always been just a fun-buddy who gets alienated and searches for other people hoping they'd be his friends, yet the cycle continues.
Guess i'm doomed to searching.. |
| posted by Sherif _ الهراوي @ 6:46 PM |
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| Saturday, May 5, 2007 |
| Secrets ... |
Whoever said information is power is stupid .. It's a curse that haunts its bearer forever ..
A friend once told me that i bring out the worst in people. As if before my self-loathing being they dish it out and say what must not be mentioned of their darkest thoughts, feelings and secrets. At the time i took it as compliment because it was kinda of a hobby to analyze people and help them through their lives and knowing their secrets have helped a lot. Nowadays i think it was more of an insult and i totally agree with her. Bringing out the worst is never a good thing.
But you reach a point - where i am - where you're done and don't want to know any more secrets or the vault would burst with the secrets you've been collecting over the time. But wishing is never enough , the information just keeps pouring over your head and holding an umbrella is never a method of protection. Radical solution as drying the clouds seems to be perfect but people's mouths are never shut and their hearts are never pure.
We all have our dark secrets, the other side of our lives that no one normally sees. this part is very important, it what makes us who we are and it's never meant to be revealed by any means.
People might wonder ,then what the hell am i writing here ?? .. If you think these are my darkest, guess again .. |
| posted by Sherif _ الهراوي @ 12:28 PM |
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